The wedding of a lifetime

Some have said why did you get married at 14?My question to you is why did you get married when you did?Age doesn't define love.The day I got married to shane I will never forget.Sitting in the white sundress.Shane in black shorts and a white shirt with his skater shoes.They actually look like the ones I have on right now.I loved him more than anything.Walking down the aisle with the two tulips in my hand.It was like a dream.I will never forget standing next to him.With our son dominick next to us.At first he was sitting on grandma's lap then jumped into daddy's arms.He wanted to be a part of the cermony.When we said our vows I will never forget the way shane could not stop crying and blowing his nose.Everyone laughed when I started drying his eyes.He made many great promises to me.One was that his love will always be there.Another that before he broke before his death was to never hit me.Mine to him were to love him and tell him everything.Shane was my love,the father of my son,and my best friend.I could tell him anything.And he was always there.When we shared our kiss dominick was screaming daddy stop kissing mommy.It made us and everyone laugh.That we turned around kissing him.We dance to a love of a lifetime.Then dealt with a little boy sick from eating cake.But I know one thing I am not really katryna marie brehm as they thought i am.I am kat marie cardnes.I love you always and forever shane brandon micheal cardnes.I miss you everyday baby.But I know it is time for me to say goodbye.And hold your love in my memory.

Why did I hide it from myself

The first time with shane was magical.The best night I had in my life.It started out with us being at in and out meeting up with everyone there.I just remember sitting next to logan and seeing shane stand in front of me.David was no where in sight and I could really care less I wanted shane.I couldn't take it anymore.I got up and went inside only to have shane follow me and when I went into the first door to go to the restroom him coming up and pushing me up against the wall.We started making out right there.I stopped shane saying this is wrong and that we shouldn't be doing this.And he took me into the girls restroom locks the door and goes baby I don't give a shit I want you.I can't hide it anymore.I look down and saw him ready to go.He whispers to me saying I want you and it's going to be okay.Right there he pulls my pants down and my underwear down and looks up at me and saying it will be okay i will be gentle.Then I almost fell to my kmees as shane took me and brought all these amazing feelings into my body.It took every ounce of me to stop him because I was scared.He goes okay baby and I got dressed.He goes let's get out of here and be alone.So we got into the car and left to our friends house. She had lost her parents and had the house so we went into the room.We took our clothes off and just stood there.I turned to shane and said I want to make love to you and you to be my first.He turned to me saying you will be okay and my first.We crawled into the bed and both feeling so nervous.Shane got ontop of me and at first it was painful.Shane kept telling me are you okay baby.It was so amazing and lasted for so long.When we both hit the end we both looked at each other like wait what did we do.I turned to shane saying I want to sleep with you and we layed down again after all that love we made.Shane put his arms around me and we fell asleep in each others arms.It was the best fucking night of my life.One I will never forget.Only to find out a while later after it happened I was pregnant with dom just kept hiding deep down that shane really is dom's dad.Never wanted to admit that great night of passion.I love you my dreamer.We made two beautiful boys together baby.