Logan

Wow where the hell to begin.Too much on my mind lately.But i have had for a while now wondered why it is i keep seeing someone who our relationship has been love/hate.Well he is suppose to come home tomorrow night or sunday.Well since i am now starting to remember things from my past.To show my true colors.I pushed back writing about this one.Logan too many words i want to say to you.And i think i know i have to write because i have to get my anger towards you out.You were there for me in the beginning a lot.Then you turned into this two faced fucking asshole.You turned your back on your friends.On your love who made the worst sacrifices for your ass.On those two kids who are now becoming better off with a real fucking man to be their dad.Someone who has been there through all of it.You turned your back on everything.Just for this stupid shit you have done now.I fucking hate you for it logan.You fucked up and the worst of it was me picking up the pieces.Well you know what I am fucking done with it.I can't do it anymore.I took care of maria for you.I took care of your children for you.And i can't fucking do it anymore.Last year when you left for korea you turned to me.Before leaving the church.And told me you left me in charge of mystic fings and no limits.That was fucking dumb.Leave me to the hell whole that daniel and johnny created.Did you not listen to anyone logan when they told you how fucking fucked up i am now thanks to that asshole daniel.How i ended up fighting for my life in a hospital bed.Having a man there crying for me every single damn day wanting me to wake up.And look him in the eyes.Having a little boy almost lose his mother.You wanted me to be in charge of that shit.What the fuck is fucking wrong with you.You told me he is lucky he never met me.He did logan he is one of your best fucking friends.I fucking have so much anger towards you for this shit.That I can't be free to love someone.Because i am so fucking fucked up.You said you would always be there.Then where the fuck were you when shane through me into the dresser and then almost knocked me into dom's bed.Where were you when he killed himself.Where were you when daniel put me through all this fucking hell logan.Oh yeah fucking be a two faced little bitch fucking ugly bitch door knob.Not giving a shit about the people who fucking have been there.The people who fucking gave a shit about you.Least your twin brother was a real man.But fuck who gives a shit now you stupid ass little fucking prick.Nothing matters anymore.When it comes to you or any of them.I move on in my life and let this shit go.