Dumbass people

Okay the first post in this journal I have to make is this.Missy you help me see i can't hold nothing back well here it goes.Something i held inside was being used as a toy when married to Daniel.Like everything that happened that people like to bring up to me pisses me off.Because you don't know what fucking happened you stupid idiotic dumbasses.One time that i tried explain my sister and she told me no one can force you onto a bed.Yes they can why because johnny forced me to go a friends room and allow their friend do what he wanted so that he would quit throwing a fit.And the worst thing is having your husband sitting there playing video games and allowed him to do this to me.I still hate myself every fucking day for it and for you dumbass people to bring it up and shit makes me want to beat the fucking crap out of you.You don't fucking get it do you stay the hell out of shit you don't know about.Then to go home and be in fear of him for this shit pains me even more.To this day the damn wounds are still hurting me more than anyone will ever know.I am trying hard to let it all out but it is hard so give me time please know that it is very hard for me.